NOTHING

hari ini
kusimpan sendiri
tentang rasa ini
tentang terpuruknya hati ini
tentang malangnya kisah hidup ini
tersakiti
terkhianati.
hari ini
takkan ada yang bisa
merasakan selain aku
aku
dan diriku
hanya diriku
yang selalu
dikhianati
hanya aku!
aku yang selalu disakiti.
tangisan ku untukmu
untuk dirimu
hanya dirimu
tak ada yang lain.
tapi kenapa
kenapa kau ulangi lagi
lihatlah diriku
tataplah mataku
disini ada aku!
yang selalu mengasihimu
disini ada aku!
yang selalu menangis karenamu.
sadarkah kau
aku lelah
aku tak kuat
menerima kenyataan ini
yang selalu saja
kau sakiti
kau tangisi
berulang-ulang.
selalu saja
aku yang salah
sadarkah kau
disini
hari ini
saat ini
aku lelah!
aku tak mau
takkan mau
seperti ini
jangan,
ku berharap
ku berdoa
semoga tak ada
kesalahan lagi
yang seperti ini.
cukup
hanya aku saja
yang merasakan ini
yang mengobati luka ini
hanya aku!
dan kumohon
ku berharap
ku menanti
kesadaran dirimu:')

because of you:'

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you